love is patient??
love is blind??
love is sweet??
love is unfair??
love is abt sacrificing??
love is abt willingness??


what is love? what is love that make us happy n hurt us easily??

there's a miserable song called 'love hurts' where a guy wails on abt love n hmm, how much it hurts. there r also loads of love songs lamenting a broken heart or spweing out resentment over a love gone wrong. n then there's the other end of the spectrum where its all rainbows n sunshine. so what is love?

i noe there r some ppl in relationship who arent exactly feeling the rainbows n sunshine. they're in relationship wif partnet but dunno why. they fight, they hav nothing to say to each other, they take each other for advantage yet if u were to ask them y they r still together, the ans probably would b they love each other. is that really love? granted, there r couples who get off on fighting bt if tats the onli thing u hav goin for ur relationship, then its really a sad situation.

then there r also those who love being miserable in relationship. apparently, if u're not moping around n sighing n worrying abt ur relationship, then u're not in real one; logic being tat "REAL" relationship r tough. come on, surely walking around with a weight on ur chest is not what love is supposed to feel like!

some ppl r perfect for each other, this could cuz they complement each other or tolerate each other. NO ONE IS PERFECT n u'd need some1 who can accept ur flaws! n yes, I NEED SOME1 WHO ACCEPT MY FLAWS!

so does LOVE REALY HURTS?? is there no such thing as perfect relationship?? can 2 ppl truly be happy together 4ever??

well, lets c, some ppl they enjoy arguing(not me), some prefer to be non-confrontational, some love unconditionally(me) whereas some find satisfaction in drama. the TRUTH is, love love DOES hurt for some but thats the way they choose it to be. for me, LOVE HURTS ME A LOT! mayb tats the way i chose to be but wat can i do?? i cant juz forget everything v hav been through, i need to keep them all in my heart althought its hurtful.

anyone of u who failed in relationship may hav brought you a lot of pain but at the end of the day, i'm sure u'll learn something fr them and come out them wiser and with a clearer picture of wat you wan or don wan in ur next relationship. n the pain doesnt last. i noe i'm forcing myself tough to get over it, but there's always something tat cant be force, especially our feelings, as us, human being, feelings is the 1st sense for us.

someone juz stole away my love, so wat i think abt love? love MUST BE SELFISH! ITS IMPOSSLBLE TO SHARE IT! V must be selfish abt love.

love makes me happy, sad, but i'm pretty sure that the happy moments will be more than the sad path ways.

for wat i think:1) love is not blind, object! there's for sure always a reason y u love some1
2) love is sweet of cuz for sure, every couples of cuz will try to hav a sweetest relationship
3) love is unfair! strongly agree! when u love him a lot but y he juz ignored it n yet loving someone else? isnt it unfair? when i'm sacrificing a lot for him but yet, he juz couldnt understand it!
4) love is abt sacrificing, of cuz, everyone who is in a relationship must sacrifice, 1st, sacrifice ur heart for him/her other than GOD.
5)love is abt willingness, comfirm! cuz i'm doin everything willingly, exhausting my life willingly. without the supporting from YOU, God, i think i cant able to survive til now. its tiring for wat i'm doin n sacrifice for him.

am waiting you, ****** ***

i got back my debate marks! haha.
unexpected=p. it wasnt tat bad as i thought.
must be our prayers worked!
at 1st i thought i will get very low marks cuz i felt tat i was out of point^^
ok, nvm. i satisfy wif my marks d!
now, waiting for maths mark! this, i seriously i will get low low for it.
nvm, mo st probably my HD for maths flew away d.
n yea, hope my prayer will works again. lol.
miss ya! miss ya!

next week will be a busy week, hav to finish up B.comm, acc, n moral assignments n projects. its all killing me! hav to work somemore. exhausted!

i wish my all my buddies n frens who goin to hav their A-level trials gd luck! study hard! i noe u guys can do it! add oil oh!

life is so complicated, sophisicated.

ok, its a australian game! its fun! all rely on speed!

yo, these days kinda of busy=p
no time for blog at this busyyyy moment,
tomoro got DEBATE!
n i havent start writing out my points. haha
God bless me=p.
ok, SOME ONE SOME ONE! i oso hav a SOME ONE in my life!
nvm, gtg to prepare my debate!
wish myself a luck tomoro for everything!
n cuz ITS WEDNESDAY!!!
day for me!!!
haha.......
BB

ok, last few posts was really emo n yeah, something tat make me happy here after my lousy shittie weekends. i dowan to mention again wat happened, but juz screwed up AGAIN, n sry sis n bro! enjoy the pics! its a half day camp at taman pertanian malaysia, shah alam. sounds cool rite? yeah, it was pretty cool but the morning rain juz spoilt my mood. but kinda enjoyed myself wif the environment there. was really cooling~~ next, went 1U wif my girls' frens. ar! bought things again, i juz couldnt stop shopping, buying clothes, spending money! crap! tats bad! from last year OCT till NOW, i think i hav bought more than 80clothes=p hehe. i'm crazy shopper yea=p n last month i had spent i think 1k=p. AR! someone must stop me speonding $$ like drnking water!!! broke!! nvm, tomoro gonna start work at robinsons, so $$ is coming back!!! hahaha.

ok,
thankz everyone!
lets say y i still love him,
its juz like chris brown n rihanna.
i think everyone noes the news abt chris n hanna.

i think everyone saw her bruises on her body tat made by chris,
yes, n yet she still love him so much n got back together wif him.

n yet i still love him no matter wat! even he whack me like chris.

n this is my own business who to blame. i wont blame anyone if no one Bitch abt me.

n everyone who noes me, i'm a person tat will nvr angry mayb=p. lol. i juz dunno how to be angry. haha.

ok, i dunno wat i hav done tat my year will be so freaking crazy bad luck,
listen here, i juz cant believe it, JL, i guessed those who noe me sure noe him,
wat kind of person he is?
romantic?? sacrificing?? lol. n yes! he's not tat type at all!

haha, guessed wat i heard,
1. googled for her house add
2. plan to bring her out for lunch
3. plan to fetch her out for concert
4. fetched her to his house play
5. plan party for everyone go his house but juz for her
6. plan to ask her for prom date
7. sent a banquet of flowers for valentine
8. buy her lime juice when she sick
9. changed his gang of frens cuz of her
10. lied to everyone cuz of her
11. etc

r tat all rumours?? haha, i don think so its a rumours or story told by some story teller, i don think its a rumours if its nt true, i don think its story make by some story maker if things din happened, n yes, after all, i believe its true.

i think tats ady enough from how he changed cuz of her. the JL tat everyone noe last time, he don give a darn for valentine day, he don plan anything for his ex, he will nvr bring his ex back home when parents around, he will nvr make a party for everyone cuz of his ex, he don give a darn when his ex sick. OMG! is tat u U now ar?

i cant believe seriously! n all these shit happened since last year oct which v juz broke up for less than a month after three years of relationship! wth is happening in this world! izzit so easy for a guy or a person to forget wat had happened in three years?!! a girl can 360degree changed a 19years old guy so easily?


omg! i feel so cheated for the past 3years by him. i had sacrifice so much for him. i;m the one tat cared abt valentine, plan to go out wif him, take care of him everytime, everything everything. ok, the onli thing here, 'i'm nt a christian'.

ar! i juz dunno how to explain my feelings now. ok, no matter wat, i will be waiting! no matter wat, u n onli u!

even though its been so long,
my love for u keeps goin strong,
i remember the things tat v used to do.

ar! there, pls pray for me, i feel tat nothing left for me here!

ok, today as usual, went mv for breakfast, haha, i spent again=p. be4 i leave to the aust edu fair at seri pacific hotel, i went isetan tried on few clothes n yea, i got them in kinda rushed=p. SALES!!! everywhere!!! i'm broke broke broke. thankz mum for paying for me=p. i feel guilty=p haha. yeah, then after tat rushed to seripacific hotel which i noe its opposite 'the mall'. once i got down from the train, walked n walked, WAIT, this place, THIS PLACE, gosh, 'the memorable' bus station! tat was the bus station v took bus to redang! arrrr! all the memories came, CAME BACK! ='(='( I MISS HIM I MISS HIM! i dunno wat else can i do, i dunno. i need pain killer for my heart, i need it! after all, the edu fair was ok, kinda small one compared to the one i went wif him last two years at convention hall, klcc. yeah, but i did found out abt other coll other than curtin. ok, tats all for today.

erm, thankz bro for fetching me out yesterdat night when i was so sad. went bangsar to look for jing szeye n sean, suprisingly i noe the way=p hehe.